Will I ever be better? Enquiring minds want to know…I want to know…

Does anyone remember that old commercial for The National Enquirer…you get points for being both old (LOL) and for being a font of useless information and trivia if you do.  No copyright infringement meant by blatantly stealing the quote for my blog title.  Don’t sue me, cause I ain’t got nothing worth taking…LOL

So here we are, almost a month after the hospital debacle of ’08 and I’m still not well.  I kept saying that I wasn’t better, that my back (kidneys) still hurt and that I still felt like I had a bladder infection, but the doctor assured me that it was my imagination or that I was just healing a little more slowly than most people.  “The urine test came back clean.  We didn’t see any bacteria in it,” he assured me over and over again.  Just a few problems with that ladies and gentleman of my readership (which is small indeed, just look at my blog stats if you don’t believe me.  The numbers, those sad, pathetic little numbers, don’t lie):  first of all, and most importantly I feel the need to stress, I STILL HAVE ALL THE SYMPTOMS AND ASSOCIATED PAIN WITH A BLADDER AND/OR KIDNEY INFECTION!  Secondly after doing extensive reading on the subject of these infections, it is possible I’ve read to drink so much fluid before a urine test that you essentially flush the bacteria out of your system, or so it will look to the test.  In reality, they are still there, they are merely regrouping from the flushing and drowning they’ve just had.  Had they bothered to test my urine EVEN ONE MORE TIME after they admitted me they would have found those little buggers and treated me accordingly.  Not that I’m angry and bitter or anything.  So now, like I said, it’s almost a month later and I’m still in horrible shape.  I’m in more pain than I was in when they admitted me.  Thank God for Percocet or I don’t think I’d be making it through this.  I’m taking a lot more than I should be, but it’s the only way to alleviate the pain.  For God’s sake when I was in the ER they had to give me 6 mg of Dilaudid before I felt any relief at all.  Hello, I’m completely tolerant to pain meds at this point.  The only blessing through all of this has been that the one symptom I haven’t had is the frequency.  Stupid name, by the way.  They should call it intense burning pain accompanied by a fullness that you feel you have to constantly expel even though there is nothing there to expel.  Well, now I have that as well.  So my current dilemma is do I go to the ER and deal with this on a Saturday evening when every moron person in the world is sick and/or hurt or do I buy the OTC pills to help with the symptoms and wait until Monday to go to the doctor.  I think I’ll wait until Monday at this point because if they do (by some miracle) actually find the kidney infection that I’ve been trying to tell them I have for a month now, I’m not going through the whole oral antibiotics at home routine again.  I did that last time and it didn’t work!  Nope, I’m going to insist, demand, beg pathetically, ask very nicely if they will please admit me and do this with the strongest IV antibiotics they have.  I want this infection knocked out of me yesterday!

As if this whole kidney/bladder thing wasn’t enough to make me want to curl up in the fetal position and cry violently, I’ve had horrible cluster headaches or migraines (not sure which) these last two days.  Both of them lasted about 4 hours or so for the main pain with the effects lingering for the rest of the night.  It felt like the left side of my head was trying to detach itself from the right side and start its own new head.  Seriously, my eye was throbbing, my jaw bone was throbbing, light and sound were excruciating.  It hasn’t been fun.  I don’t know if it’s possible for a kidney infection to cause that, but I’m sure gonna find out.

On the knitting/spinning front, not much going on, I must admit.  My life, if you call sleeping, peeing and crying a life, has just not been overly conducive to it lately, I’m afraid.  I’ve started a pair of what are called Thigh High socks from Lion Brand’s free patterns, but are really a pair of leg warmers that cover the tops of your feet and have slits for the heels.  They are really cute looking and I’ve been promising Kate a pair of leg warmers forever.  It’s my first foray into solo color work.  Very basic striping using Fibonacci numbers and 4 colors of Rowan Calmer (I love this yarn so much) that I’ve had in my stash forever and a day.  I’ve put the Tidal Wave scarf aside until I finish Storm Water, which is coming along nicely.  I’ve also put aside my camel down mitts until I finish Storm Water.  It was part of a deal I made with myself when I started the mitts flouting the no new projects until I finish the scarves for X-mas rule.  I decreed to myself that I would allow myself to work on one mitt per scarf.  Since mitt one is done, but scarf one is not, there will be no starting mitt two until aforementioned scarf is completed.  It’s a good thing I took really good pattern notes when I did the first mitt, huh?  LOL  Yeah, like I took pattern notes, good or otherwise.  My idea of pattern notes is counting the number of rows in each section so I can copy it for the next mitt…on a napkin that I most likely used to wipe my mouth…LOL  Seriously, I have some very basic notes to follow from when I get to mitt number one.  Would I really allow my precious handspun to be wasted that way?  Not on your life.

Getting ready to get my first swap package together to go out.  I’m still waiting for a few things I ordered to arrive, but I think that my “swapee” is going to enjoy her package.  I’ve gone with a lot of the things that she said she liked in her questionnaire.  I planned to be much more sneaky and stalky and to find out secret things about her and really spoil her good, but this whole illness has kind of put a damper on that.  Still, I plan to spoil her the best way I can from this position.  I really hope she like me the package.

Have a great weekend everyone.  Have some fun for me since I’ll either be in the hospital if I can’t take this anymore or at the very least in this bed, wishing I was able to enjoy some of this Indian summer we’re having. ARGH!!!

Sick again

You know, I’d heard that you get sick a lot more once you have kids, but I thought that didn’t happen that until after they started school.  I’ve had so many little colds and things in the last year – the kind that come and go in a few days – that you would think I worked in a germ factory (what a horrible thought, working in a factory full of just germs).  This time, though, was worse.  I got myself a wonderful little case of bronchitis.  At least it didn’t turn into full blown pneumonia like it normally does, though.  For the last five or six days I’ve done nothing but sneeze, wheeze, cough, blow and spit phlegm.  Not fun.  I haven’t been able to sleep, to eat, to knit, to do anything really.  I didn’t think it would ever end.  I went to bed last night (early this morning) planning to call the doctor today to go in for a chest x-ray to check for pneumonia but woke up this morning with my nose clear (ah, the taste of food and drink) and my chest feeling lighter than it has in a week.  I think I sweat most of whatever I had out; my pillow was soaked this morning when I woke up.  The best part, though, is having some of my energy back.  I’ve felt like something the cat not only dragged in, but threw up on and then pushed down a flight of stairs all week.

I’ve decided to start a small business hand dying and spinning yarn eventually.  Of course I have to get a wheel, learn to use it and see if I have the talent needed to do this, but I’m hopeful.  🙂  I’m getting my wheel for Christmas and I can’t wait.  Ever since I got to use Shannon’s a few weeks ago, I’m hooked.  Admittedly, I haven’t done much spindle spinning in the last weeks, but I’ve been working on the knitted X-mas gifts for family.  I’m using totally different yarns and patterns than I originally planned.  My first ideas were a bit of a reach for my skills.  I think I could have gotten them done, but definitely not in time.  Maybe next year.

I’m becoming quite the little matchmaker.  I set up Andrea with Bubba (an old friend of mine) and they not only hit it off, they fell instantly in love.  I’ve heard of love at first sight, but never seen it actually happen right before my eyes.  I’m so happy for them.  Both of them are great people who haven’t had the best luck with love in the past.  They seem to be a perfect fit.  I hope this is the forever love that they are both looking for.

Sick, clean and being a good mommy

I feel like shit today. Not a good way to feel. I have a sore throat, a toothache from hell that I’m going to have to break down and call a dentist about (not good; not good at all) and I just all around feel icky. There’s an interesting word…icky. It’s actually quite ugly looking, but enough about stupid words that look ugly…LOL.

There’s not a whole lot to say. I’ve been keeping up with the housework which is a big plus for me. I think that it’s going to stick this time; fingers crossed that I’m not jinxing myself right back into the depths of I don’t care depression. I find that I really like living in an organized house and that the “organized mess” I claimed to love wasn’t organized at all, it was just a mess that I was too lazy to deal with. I’m a little bummed that I’ve only maintained, though. I was really hoping that I’d keep going totally gung ho and get all the laundry in the basement done; I finally got out to the garage and unpacked all the bags of clothes that came from the trailer, and let me tell you they were nasty!! I keep reminding myself, though, that when I did all that extra work, I was home alone for 2 1/2 days and I could work on this house all day and all night with no interruptions. Now I have Jake and he’s not an interruption, per se, but he does need a lot of attention and I’m not going to blow him off to get extra laundry done. I think it’s actually pretty good that I managed to maintain the level of cleanliness I achieved last weekend and I’m thinking that if I can keep that up and gradually work towards getting more done in a day, I’m golden.

We’ve made serious progress in the Jake sleeping by himself ordeal. This whole week he’s finally slept in his own bed. The first night was hell, but after that not so bad. Either TJ or myself has to stay in his room with him for a little while after we first put him down and if he wakes up he needs to be tucked back in, but the number of times he’s waking up and the duration of “up time” has decreased. He’s still climbing into our bed around 5 or 6 and we’re letting him b/c with him getting up around 7:30 it’s not worth the hassle of trying to get him back to bed and then trying to get back to sleep. That, too, will go eventually. I’m thinking we can start working on that after he gets his tonsils out.

The Garden Path Shawl is finally coming along nicely. I’m now (finally) past the point where I had to do the big rip out before and I’m up to the 40″ cable on my circular needles. Have I mentioned how much I adore the Knit Pick’s Options needles? I’m also thinking about getting the newest addition to the Options family, the Harmony wooden interchangeable needle set. When I first heard about the new needles, I was a little bit bummed out that they came out so soon after I got my nickel plated original set, but now I’m really glad they did. If they had come out first, I would have bought them and I never would have known how much I love the slippery, cool feeling of the nickel plated set. I would have really missed out.

Time to go now. Jake and TJ will be back from the store soon and that means bath and bedtime for Jake is imminent and that’s my department.

Night, y’all.