I’ve been neglectful of the blog again lately.  I truly mean to post every few days to every week at the most, but I always seem to let it slip through the cracks.  I’ve made resolutions this year that I’ve kept thus far, so blogging more consistently doesn’t seem like that difficult a thing to do.  Any tips/hints for motivation re: blogging daily please let me know.

So what’s new in 2015 for me…

Personally: My divorce is final. It wasn’t as heartbreaking as I thought it would be. Of course there was a huge sense of sadness and loss, but there was also a part of me that felt like a huge weight had been lifted off of me.  It’s been hard on the kids, but I believe that, in the end, this will be the best thing for them. I am now a proud home owner…all mine, no mortgage, no lein, nothing.  That’s another weight off my shoulders. Dating, at this point, is so far away from the agenda I can’t even see the possibility at this moment. I think it’s time to enjoy life for what it has to offer me. I haven’t been “single” since I was 19 years old.  This is like an adventure.

On a not so pleasant note, we are having a lot of problems with J and his video game addiction.  He’s still being punished from the last time when he got caught taking his 3DS to school and then being flip with the principal about being late to class because of it; he’s got 2 weeks of a 2 month grounding left. He got caught lying about and playing video games behind our backs.  He seems to think it’s all some sort of game and that as long as he can ride out the punishments, I don’t think he cares.  Any suggestions here would be appreciated.

Will update later today or tomorrow re: knitting in 2015….

When knitting isn’t enough…

Some days not even the knitting soothes me.  My life is such a confusing mess right now.  I’m in the middle of a divorce that I didn’t/ still don’t really want.  I’m struggling with child custody issues and my depression.  The divorce is not something I can change.  So I tried moving on (can we all say rebound is a BAD thing).  B and I had a great 6 month thing  and then have been best friends ever since.  A weird kind of friends…I guess they call it friends with benefits.  We live together, have meals together, sleep in the same bed periodically etc.  It hasn’t been perfect, but it’s a situation that works (ed) for both of us.  Now B is ready to start dating and it’s screwingl with my head a little.  I knew that it wasn’t going to last this way forever  but delusion and comfort are a bitch.  So now he’s seeing this new girl – using my car of all things (I think I’m way too easy when it comes to giving him use of my things sometimes) tomorrow and spending the night.  I’m a little jealous, if I’m honest, but my concern lie a lot more toward losing my roommate, my best friend and the small amount of stability I’ve been able to give my kids since my marriage fell apart.   ETA: So it’s 2 hours since I started this and can I just say…PITY PARTY anyone?!?!?! I need to stop feeling sorry for myself, kick my own ass and make life what I want it to be on my terms. Next post will be pretties….spindle, yarn and fiber porn for ya’ll…LOL