I’m home alone again. TJ and Jake are up north for the “weekend” (which is denoted by the days TJ has off work – Tues-Thurs – rather than the traditional weekend) and I’m at home with a cold and a ton of housework. I didn’t feel right leaving for a party and a mini-vacation while my house was in disarray. My how I’ve changed. I should be a lot farther ahead than I am, but I wasn’t feeling well yesterday and I was lazy. I got the maintenance stuff done, but I didn’t make a dent in the stuff that I need to get done in addition to that. I’ve been going through the stuff that we packed from the trailer and brought to the new house that’s been sitting in our garage for the last 4 months. I got through all the clothes last week, sorted them into fits and doesn’t fit, like and don’t like etc. as well as sorting all of the clothes that don’t fit Jacob anymore. They need to be washed and put away so that they’ll be ready for baby number 2, whenever that is – soon, I hope. Those clothes are all down the basement, sorted into piles and ready to go, I just haven’t washed it yet. That’s my goal for tonight. I also want to clean the kitchen and get the living room in tip top shape. I’ve lived in a house that’s a pig sty for so long, that this is like a revelation for me and I’m almost rabid about keeping it this way. I feel like if I slack for even one day it will all go to hell again and I’ll never get it clean again. It’s my current biggest fear, silly isn’t it?
I feel like it’s a whole new life and I’m trying to find a balance to it all. I don’t know how to reconcile the cleaning, child care and personal care and time with each other. Welcome to the real world, Shannon. I’ve lived in my own little world for far too long and now I’m trying to make the transition to a “normal” person and it’s definitely a challenge. I have so many things that I have to do and then things that I need to do and it’s hard to find a way to blend the two. I’m sure that I’ll figure it out in time, but right now I’m kind of struggling.
I’ve got the knitting that I have to get done: my scarf swap, which is so close to being done and my Christmas gifts that are also coming along. Those are the only things that I’m allowing myself to work on right now even though there are so many cute things that I really want to tackle. After Christmas, though, it’s on. I’ll allow my “startitis” to take over and I’ll allow myself to become overwhelmed with UFO’s. LOL Until then, I’ll be lost in my three big projects. I’m hoping to have the scarf swap scarf done in the next few weeks…less if possible. And then it’s all X-mas. The Garden Path shawl is proving to be a bigger challenge than I anticipated; I’ve had to tear it back to almost the beginning at least twice and last night I had to go back about 15 rows. I’m not giving up, though. I will persevere. I’ve put too much time and energy into this thing to give up now. I know I can do it. It’s generally just stupid mistakes that cause the problems; I work when I’m too tired to concentrate properly or I’m distracted while I knit and I don’t notice the mistake until rows later. I’m going to be more diligent about it from now on!! 🙂
I’m off now to put in laundry and read some blogs before getting out the knitting for the night. I think tonight will be a work on scarf until it’s done or I can’t see straight kind of night. Are you reading, Melinda? I’m still working on it. I haven’t forgotten or blown it off. Don’t lose faith in me…LOL 🙂