When knitting isn’t enough…

Some days not even the knitting soothes me.  My life is such a confusing mess right now.  I’m in the middle of a divorce that I didn’t/ still don’t really want.  I’m struggling with child custody issues and my depression.  The divorce is not something I can change.  So I tried moving on (can we all say rebound is a BAD thing).  B and I had a great 6 month thing  and then have been best friends ever since.  A weird kind of friends…I guess they call it friends with benefits.  We live together, have meals together, sleep in the same bed periodically etc.  It hasn’t been perfect, but it’s a situation that works (ed) for both of us.  Now B is ready to start dating and it’s screwingl with my head a little.  I knew that it wasn’t going to last this way forever  but delusion and comfort are a bitch.  So now he’s seeing this new girl – using my car of all things (I think I’m way too easy when it comes to giving him use of my things sometimes) tomorrow and spending the night.  I’m a little jealous, if I’m honest, but my concern lie a lot more toward losing my roommate, my best friend and the small amount of stability I’ve been able to give my kids since my marriage fell apart.   ETA: So it’s 2 hours since I started this and can I just say…PITY PARTY anyone?!?!?! I need to stop feeling sorry for myself, kick my own ass and make life what I want it to be on my terms. Next post will be pretties….spindle, yarn and fiber porn for ya’ll…LOL

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