This is so backwards. I still owe everyone, myself included, several posts re: Connor’s very early birth and his time in the NICU. I plan to add these posts soon. It’s just been too hard and too raw to bring myself to put thought to paper, or screen as the case may be. I think I needed a little bit of time and space to process everything before writing it all out.
I did start to post from my hospital room the day after my c-section, but I was far to drugged to know what I was saying and I don’t even know where the draft that I thought I had saved was.
Short version (to be followed in detail very soon): Connor was born June 3, 2010 at 2:47 pm after I was rushed to the hospital the night before. I was just barely past 33 weeks when he was born. He was HUGE for his gestational age, weighing in at 5 lbs 15.4 oz. and 19.7 inches long. He didn’t really look like a preemie for the most part except for his skin was still very thin and he had very little fat on his back and almost no butt at all. He was whisked straight to the NICU and I was taken to recovery. I only saw him for a VERY short time in his incubator later that day. My recovery was uneventful if a lot more painful that c-section #1 was. I was admitted on Wednesday night and discharged on Monday night. The stay in the hospital was actually very peaceful for me; a nice buffer zone between me and the reality that I was going to have to go home WITHOUT MY BABY. I survived that horror – barely, I must say – and have made it though all the tough times since.
Jumping ahead to now: Connor is about a week from being able to come home and I couldn’t be more thrilled. He’s the most beautiful, sweet, wonderful baby there has ever been (other than Jacob of course who was just as sweet and wonderful) and I’m absolutely in love with him. I can’t wait to have him in my arms whenever I want him. Unlike Jacob, Connor wants to nurse – all the time it seems. I’m thinking that once we get him home exclusively breast feeding (he has bottles in the hospital) won’t be a problem at all. Sure there will be some kinks to work out, but I know he’ll get there. My mother is here for 2 months to help us out and we wouldn’t have been able to handle this NICU nightmare without her and her help. My health has been a series of ups and downs since Connor came, mostly downs. Right now my blood pressure is higher than it’s ever been in my life and I”m not sure what is causing it or what can be done. I’ve put off any real medical intervention b/c anything they give me will be contraindicated for breast feeding and that’s not something I’m willing to give up on. We’ll see what can be done. Must get some sleep for now…wanted to share the news and promise a more in depth series of posts re: the beginning of Connor’s life in the next week or so. XOXO