Will I ever be better? Enquiring minds want to know…I want to know…

Does anyone remember that old commercial for The National Enquirer…you get points for being both old (LOL) and for being a font of useless information and trivia if you do.  No copyright infringement meant by blatantly stealing the quote for my blog title.  Don’t sue me, cause I ain’t got nothing worth taking…LOL

So here we are, almost a month after the hospital debacle of ’08 and I’m still not well.  I kept saying that I wasn’t better, that my back (kidneys) still hurt and that I still felt like I had a bladder infection, but the doctor assured me that it was my imagination or that I was just healing a little more slowly than most people.  “The urine test came back clean.  We didn’t see any bacteria in it,” he assured me over and over again.  Just a few problems with that ladies and gentleman of my readership (which is small indeed, just look at my blog stats if you don’t believe me.  The numbers, those sad, pathetic little numbers, don’t lie):  first of all, and most importantly I feel the need to stress, I STILL HAVE ALL THE SYMPTOMS AND ASSOCIATED PAIN WITH A BLADDER AND/OR KIDNEY INFECTION!  Secondly after doing extensive reading on the subject of these infections, it is possible I’ve read to drink so much fluid before a urine test that you essentially flush the bacteria out of your system, or so it will look to the test.  In reality, they are still there, they are merely regrouping from the flushing and drowning they’ve just had.  Had they bothered to test my urine EVEN ONE MORE TIME after they admitted me they would have found those little buggers and treated me accordingly.  Not that I’m angry and bitter or anything.  So now, like I said, it’s almost a month later and I’m still in horrible shape.  I’m in more pain than I was in when they admitted me.  Thank God for Percocet or I don’t think I’d be making it through this.  I’m taking a lot more than I should be, but it’s the only way to alleviate the pain.  For God’s sake when I was in the ER they had to give me 6 mg of Dilaudid before I felt any relief at all.  Hello, I’m completely tolerant to pain meds at this point.  The only blessing through all of this has been that the one symptom I haven’t had is the frequency.  Stupid name, by the way.  They should call it intense burning pain accompanied by a fullness that you feel you have to constantly expel even though there is nothing there to expel.  Well, now I have that as well.  So my current dilemma is do I go to the ER and deal with this on a Saturday evening when every moron person in the world is sick and/or hurt or do I buy the OTC pills to help with the symptoms and wait until Monday to go to the doctor.  I think I’ll wait until Monday at this point because if they do (by some miracle) actually find the kidney infection that I’ve been trying to tell them I have for a month now, I’m not going through the whole oral antibiotics at home routine again.  I did that last time and it didn’t work!  Nope, I’m going to insist, demand, beg pathetically, ask very nicely if they will please admit me and do this with the strongest IV antibiotics they have.  I want this infection knocked out of me yesterday!

As if this whole kidney/bladder thing wasn’t enough to make me want to curl up in the fetal position and cry violently, I’ve had horrible cluster headaches or migraines (not sure which) these last two days.  Both of them lasted about 4 hours or so for the main pain with the effects lingering for the rest of the night.  It felt like the left side of my head was trying to detach itself from the right side and start its own new head.  Seriously, my eye was throbbing, my jaw bone was throbbing, light and sound were excruciating.  It hasn’t been fun.  I don’t know if it’s possible for a kidney infection to cause that, but I’m sure gonna find out.

On the knitting/spinning front, not much going on, I must admit.  My life, if you call sleeping, peeing and crying a life, has just not been overly conducive to it lately, I’m afraid.  I’ve started a pair of what are called Thigh High socks from Lion Brand’s free patterns, but are really a pair of leg warmers that cover the tops of your feet and have slits for the heels.  They are really cute looking and I’ve been promising Kate a pair of leg warmers forever.  It’s my first foray into solo color work.  Very basic striping using Fibonacci numbers and 4 colors of Rowan Calmer (I love this yarn so much) that I’ve had in my stash forever and a day.  I’ve put the Tidal Wave scarf aside until I finish Storm Water, which is coming along nicely.  I’ve also put aside my camel down mitts until I finish Storm Water.  It was part of a deal I made with myself when I started the mitts flouting the no new projects until I finish the scarves for X-mas rule.  I decreed to myself that I would allow myself to work on one mitt per scarf.  Since mitt one is done, but scarf one is not, there will be no starting mitt two until aforementioned scarf is completed.  It’s a good thing I took really good pattern notes when I did the first mitt, huh?  LOL  Yeah, like I took pattern notes, good or otherwise.  My idea of pattern notes is counting the number of rows in each section so I can copy it for the next mitt…on a napkin that I most likely used to wipe my mouth…LOL  Seriously, I have some very basic notes to follow from when I get to mitt number one.  Would I really allow my precious handspun to be wasted that way?  Not on your life.

Getting ready to get my first swap package together to go out.  I’m still waiting for a few things I ordered to arrive, but I think that my “swapee” is going to enjoy her package.  I’ve gone with a lot of the things that she said she liked in her questionnaire.  I planned to be much more sneaky and stalky and to find out secret things about her and really spoil her good, but this whole illness has kind of put a damper on that.  Still, I plan to spoil her the best way I can from this position.  I really hope she like me the package.

Have a great weekend everyone.  Have some fun for me since I’ll either be in the hospital if I can’t take this anymore or at the very least in this bed, wishing I was able to enjoy some of this Indian summer we’re having. ARGH!!!


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