I’ve been here in sunny, happy Seal Beach for three weeks tomorrow and I’m having a great time! I miss TJ like crazy, but if it wasn’t for that, this would be a perfect trip and I’d be happy to stay here forever.
Right now I’m sitting in a recliner with the laptop on my lap and the big screen TV in front of me. It’s 80 degrees and sunny and absolutely gorgeous. I’m sitting here instead of playing outside with Little Man b/c my feet and ankles have been really badly swollen for the last three or four days. I’ve been trying to ignore it and just go on, but they have been getting worse and worse and today it hurts to even walk. Not sure what the cause is: blood pressure (but I don’t have the headaches that have typically gone with my b.p. problems in the past), sodium issues (but I haven’t been eating or drinking anything different from back home), and my favorite, pregnancy. That would be a real blast. I’ve had other “symptoms” of impending mommy-hood as well: heartburn, changes in the way the areola look as well as my nipples (they’re darker and they’re bigger around, my fatigue has been crazy (I’m always crazy, but it comes and goes whenever it feels like it). I know the odds are so small that I’m pregnant, and I also know that I always think that I’m pregnant as soon as there is one little symptom that “might” mean pregnancy, so I’m trying not to get my hopes up here. It would be wonderful, though, and a great birthday gift to my mother to have another baby. I guess we’ll see in a few weeks; it’s too soon to do a test – still a few weeks to go until I’d be around 6 weeks, so I’ll just keep waiting and hoping. 🙂 Keep your fingers crossed for me.
As I’m sitting here I’m watching my mom and Little Man playing outside. They’re blowing bubbles together and it’s the most heartwarming thing I’ve ever seen. He’s really taken to her and she’s so in love with him. Just watching them together makes my heart swell with pride and joy. It’s like she’s 20 years younger when she’s with him. I can’t remember the last time I saw her happy like this and I love it!!!
****ETA****Didn’t finish writing until now; I was called outside by Little Man to participate in the bubble blowing and leaf finding and said to hell with my legs and went for it wtih him. Bad idea, for the most part. Lots more swelling and a little more pain as well. I’ll be okay, though 🙂