My 101 in 1001 (a work in progress)
This has been floating around forever, so I’m going to play along in my own fashion. I’m going to set up two different lists; one for craft-related activities and the other for my life in general. I’ll fill them in as I go along, but the finish date will be 1001 days from the day of its creation – today: January 9, 2009 so 1001 days from now is December 7, 2011. Wow that feels like a really long time from now. I know I’m going to feel like I have forever to work on this and then I’ll blink and the time will be gone. So anyway. My 1001: 1/9/09 – 12/7/11
Okay, so this didn’t work out at all. I was lazy and sat around smoking pot and doing nothing of value until I got pregnant in Oct. of 2009 and by then I had forgotten about this list. I was going to just delete the whole thing, but one of the things I’m trying to do this new year is to own my mistakes and not ignore the things that I don’t want to see/face. Daunting. So I leave this up realizing that not only did I not finish the list; I didn’t even finish MAKING the list…SAD!!! I did accomplish a few things…I had a child who is healthy. Technically I didn’t give birth to a healthy child – I gave birth to a 33 week preemie who was addicted to Methadone b/c of my need for it to control back pain. (No one -and that includes doctors- warns you when you start this “miracle drug” will take over your life – not from a “junkie” standpoint but from a serious physical addiction standpoint – and take years to get weaned completely weaned off of. I shouldn’t complain about Methadone too strenuously because before we tried it (and it was the last in a long line of medicines and other non-surgical alternatives we tried – there aren’t many narcotic pain meds that I haven’t been on at this point and most of them didn’t even touch my pain. The few that did help with the pain made me so high/spacey/sleepy that being able to move from a pain-free standpoint was pointless. When I started the Methadone and got to a dose that worked, it was like a miracle. It was like someone had fixed my back almost over night. After having to have a live-in Nanny do almost everything for Jacob for the first two years of his life, I could finally pick up and hold my little boy; I could finally play with him and run with him and do all the things I had dreamed of doing when I was carrying him inside me. Over the years (J is 6 1/2 now) the disks in my back have slowly found their way back to where they belong and now that I know how to stretch and how to be careful with my back and how I use it, the pain is almost non-existant. When I started being able to “live” again I was taking 120 mg. of Methadone split into 3 40 mg. a day doses along with Percocet for the breakthrough pain and Vicodin for the pain that broke through before the Percocet wore off. I was a walking narcotic pharmaceutical company. We fairly quickly got to the point where I told Dr. M that I didn’t need the Vicodin anymore. I was still taking WAY too much Percocet because I was scared to take all the Methadone I was supposed to. The stigma of “heroin junkie” lingered around me. I was so scared that I would be perceived that way if anyone found out that I was on Methadone. 6 years ago very few people knew much about its use as a pain killer. Even today when I tell a select few friends about the meds I’m on I get funny looks until I explain the whole story. So there I am in Oct. of 2010 and I had been talking to my doctor about weaning off the Methadone for about 6 to 8 months at that point because I was on fertility drugs to try to get pregnant with C. She didn’t want to go that route, saying she felt that it had taken us so long to get to the point where I was fully functional again and she didn’t want to mess with that. She also assured me that it was perfectly safe to get pregnant while taking the Methadone. Even so, once I found out I was pregnant I took it upon myself to start self-weaning. Dr. M was on board when I saw her when I was 15 weeks pregnant and told my goal was to wean as far as possible by the time C was due (July 20, 2010 – which we now know he had no intention of waiting for). Is it just me or is this becoming more of a blog post than a page?!?! Oh well, on we push!
Here We Go…..
The Crafty 101
- Complete one Faire Isle project no matter how big or small
- Knit at least one pair of socks in every technique: cuff-down, toe-up, dpn, 2 circ., magic loop as well as incorporating a lace pattern, textured pattern, cabled pattern, simple pattern or colorwork pattern in each of the types.
- Finish @ least ONE Mystery KAL while it’s in progress, or at least start with everyone else and try to keep up.
- Knit a project that involves beading in more than just a very small tangetial way.
The Life-y 101
- Give birth to a healthy child!! Done
- Work up a list of chores for Jake and stick to them.
- Spend more quality time with Jake every day (too vague, I know, but I’ll get more specific later)
- Work Hard at eating better and exercising. Using the Wii Fit as well as other activities I plan to lose at 100 lbs in the next 1001 days. I WILL HAVE A GOOD BODY AGAIN SO HELP ME GOD!!
